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Thursday, July 12, 2007

Home is the best shelter that we always took for granted.
after a long day out in school as well as the public, ~phew
my eyes were sore, tired and painful!! ~argh!!!

alright today post will be exciting, funny, and to know that how i am leading my life now... :)
without further ado, i shall start with the post/entry for today: 12-07-2007 Thursday.

woke up in the morning today with heavy eye bags, my goodness!!
i have not been sleeping well for the past few days and yesterday night was atrocious!
i called up Rid (actually sms him and asked him to call me) and have a long conversation.
Firstly, thats a million for spending time with me yesterday to listen to my painful words. :(
we were discussing about the Maths questions at first, but after that we started with the pain.
i asked him, why am i leading a painful life now, with no one to trust and turn to.
i talked to him about what happened in school, how others treated me, etc.
slowly, anger rises, patience running low and something i never expected, my tears... :(
i am really tired, really tired, for those who are reading this, i am really tired.
i kept all my sorrow, anger, pain, tears behind my smile.
but will anyone actually knew that? i doubt so, after all,
i am someone that people place the last in the list of their life.
i am just an ordinary boy, who lets people step over me with no response in school.
someone that is not worth it to be with,
someone whom you guys think i am always the destroyer of everything, the black sheep.
but am i really like that? i don't know, i need enlightenment. please, give me a chance... :(
i do not really have a peaceful home, its starting to get chaotic at home.
you guys have everything, but me?
i am really tired......

walked to school peacefully, and i really meant peacefully, without any music any words.
i kept on walking, in my mind, when and where is the end of my painful road going to end.
walked towards the parade square with a smile that was really a make up ones...
unfortunately, the morning was held in the hall as its drizzling.
in my mind, how long can i resist this suffering? how long? when will i collapse?

first lesson today was Physics.
i am going mad, really, i felt that i am a total changed person in split second.
i was talking loudly, laughing loudly, cracking jokes.
are all these symptoms of depression? i really wonder, i am not me now.
luckily, we are having test today, and will quiet me down.
i did the test in a still, blank mind, due to over stress with all sorts of things.
as soon as the bell rang, my craps resumed, i am out of control... :(

took my bag and rushed to the next lesson with loads of excitement, like a primary student.
maybe i have alot of happiness during my primary period, and so, i am changing towards that.
next lesson was English, instead of a proper lesson, we started off with briefing.
those briefing were really complicated to spell out here.
therefore i shall skip that and proceed to the next point and thats the next lesson...

MATHEMATICS,its really an exciting subject!! i just love it, really don't know why...
am i out of my mind? i hate maths to the core since young, but now...
so we continued with vectors, its getting harder and harder, but i am catching up... :)
thats a good sign isn't it? haha...
so i sat with Rid today, we discuss the maths questions together.
i find that, after i could answer whatever question that a teacher ask, i felt great.
so some it maybe nothing, but to me, this prove that there are improvements shown...
we completed the works assigned in a short period of time.
and we went off to recess!!

i shall skipped the segment of the recess, its kinda bored...

after recess was COMBINED HUMANITIES...
i love or can say adore CH alot, ever since i improve tremendously in sec 3 till now. :)
today we started off with the grouping for the SAT lesson, hahaha...
its really funny lah!!
after the talk, and we wanted to start the lesson proper, jessica mention or prompt this...
Jessica:"Melvin Chan what group arh?"
and at the point of time, i was drawing a face on my bottle, and i was laughing at it.
and i said this to Fadilah...
Wei Sheng:"Hey, look! it got a sexy lip!!"
than i saw Mr Trevor smiling and giggling at me, my god..you are not gonna believe what he said
Mr Trevor:" SEXY LEGS??"
my god, firstly, i was not talking to him, secondly, did i say any legs?? hahaha!!!
and so after that we start the lesson proper for another few minutes, hahaha... :)

and so we proceed on to our last period, CLD--->BORING!!!
hahaha, we did some physics and a little bit of CLD proper.
its kinda boring lah, but i was listening to the CLD lesson, i was talking to Rid about movie... :)
so so the lesson ended...

went to lunch with Rid, but sat down with Amalina and gang.
we were talking about tomorrow which is the art camp falls on 13-07-2007(FRIDAY)!
arh, and we talked about past incidents... :(
its really scarry lah!!
so i bought a curry bun and a bowl of Mee Soto...
and soon went to the Maths extra-lesson...
its kinda boring, just doing worksheets alone in the class without any teacher. :)

after the lesson, me and Rid was walking out from the front gate intend to watch movie!!
and we saw, at Canberra Park, Fiona and Liza playing with swing!!
hahaha, they left so early just to play with the swings? my god!! hahaha...
and they saw us, they were like hiding away, but both Rid and i was laughing and shouting away!
and we were asked by them to cross over and play with them, and so we did.
after that together we went to meet Mas(4e2) at the back gate to watch the movie.
she have already bought the ticket before hand, haha. so efficient!!
and fiona was like wanting to watch too, but she say that she have no money...
but she mention that she want to eat lunch, so want to accompany her lor.
but on the way, we saw Felicia, Mx, Nydia, Milko, Jw, Gab and Melvin Oh, and she followed lor.
than me, Rid and Mas head to KFC, we sat there but ate NOTHING!!
and so went to beary and friends to buy present and than to cinema...
Mas actually paid for the Popcorns family set and Nachos set!!
she is so great lah, i really owe her man!!
and we watch....
"HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX!"
my god, its action pack, exciting effects and lighting, and also sound.
i just love it lah, and its WORTH it to watch!!
and the people there were ( Me, Rid, Mas, Jw, Gab, Melvin Oh, Felicia, Nydia, Milko, Mx and Fiona)
and show you a picture of it...

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i really enjoy the movie alot.
after the show, we went to the most heavenly place... TOILET!!
hahaha, and after that i headed home, and have bought a new crystal case for my hp.
and i am going to change my phone to N76(RED)...
i just love it man!!!

tomorrow will be a long day, lesson in the morning and art camp in the evening!
so i will be going already...
thats all for today...
thanks for looking at the post today... :)

aHbOeiiShEnG
bLaStInG to dInNeR....
wooSH!~!!!

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